Thursday, April 28, 2005

Another victim of the blog

I am so glad that I recovered that last blog. It was last for what I thought would be forever. I found it miraculously though, waiting to be published in my blog. So you all get to read it rather than it being lost forever. I can't write much because I need to do biology homework. I am struggling this week with hypocracy. Everyone around me seems to be wearing bright neon signs that say, "I'm a hypocrite." I know that human beings are hypocrites but I seem to be paying more attention to it lately. I really can't say why. I guess I'm just tired of people saying one thing then doing another. It's hard to see holy people do unholy things. I know that everyone sins and no one is perfect. That is obvious. But it is still hard to see people compromise and make exceptions for certain things but not others. I know it bothers me so much to see it in other people because I am a huge hypocrite myself. This week has been another whirlwind week. This weekend I am going to Connecticut because my grandmother had a stroke. We aren't sure how much time she has left. My family is going to see her and I decided to join them. It is a horrible thing to say but I almost feel like I lost her awhile ago. She has severe Alzheimer's and hasn't recognized me for awhile. Still, I feel like it is important for me to go and say my good-byes to her. We don't know if this is the end....it may be only the beginning of the end. I want to be there for my mom because I know it will be hard to see her mom so sick. Anyways, I really need to go. Oh Nikki, wish Allen a belated Happy Birthday for me. I remembered the day of his birthday but never got a chance to say anything.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Whew

Well my sister's wedding is over. It was a week ago yesterday. I thought it was a beautiful wedding. I loved standing beside her in my beautiful dress and feeling like a princess. I was surprised at myself because I barely cried. I got teary-eyed and two tears trickled down my cheek at one point. This is very unlike me. It was especially hard standing next to my dad and sister and seeing them both cry. My dad had to be both father of the bride and pastor. I'm sure it was pretty hard for him to wear two hats. Cindy and Josh have been through so much juntos and I am so glad that they have gotten to this point. It was awesome getting to see them exchange vows. I was overwhelmed and probably more jittery than my sister was. It was pretty nerve racking. It was fun having Becca, Lynette, Dave, and Marc there and so helpful. Becca and Lynette ran so many errands for me. It was a weekend of different worlds colliding. It was weird having my Philly friends in my home town meeting my old friends. It was also weird seeing my mom's side and dad's side together and in my hometown. I felt like the line of people hugging me would never end. I really did enjoy having everyone together even though I didn't get to spend much time with anyone. So it's so weird to think that my sister is no longer a Reynolds. I am the only Reynolds girl left (and probably will be forever). She is now Cindy Williams. Whoa. Our friend Matt flew in from Colorodo to surprise her. It was so nice to see him. My friendship with him is an awesome example of how God can heal relationships. We went through this rocky period when we didn't speak to each other at all and there was so much bitterness between us. Now there is only a faint memory of that time period. I am really at peace about it and truly love him with no hard feelings attached. God is amazing. My sister looked gorgeous in her wedding dress. I've never seen such a pretty girl in all my life. I now have a brother-in-law. I was so exhausted after the wedding. I couldn't even drive myself home from Marc's on Sunday afternoon. It's very rare for that to happen to me. I took a long and disoriented nap on his couch. I can't believe how mentally, physically, and emotionally draining the whole weekend was. This weekend was hard too. Jeff's memorial service was yesterday. I cried pretty much the whole time. I didn't know him well at all but I had such a burden for him. God has granted me with the gift to feel the pain of others and even cry for them. I really feel deeply for the Dean family. It was so hard hearing his voice and seeing all the love he had for Monica and his kids. It made me think a lot about love. They seemed to have such a deep love and devotion for each other. However, it wasn't rooted in Christ so is it actually shallow? I am very perplexed by this. Please offer any words of wisdom you may have. This month I will have covered pretty much all the big lifetime milestones three weekends in a row. Last weekend a wedding, this weekend a death, and next weekend a birth. I just got back from NYC. I went with people from Eastern to see a Spanish play. It was really good even though it had a few surprises (like a completely naked man). It was so great speaking Spanish again. I really want to practice more because I am so rusty. I am really glad I went. I had a really nice day with Marc. It was nice having some quality time with him because it has been so long. Well I am going to go home and veg a little before I study for my test for my evil bio class.

Whew

Well my sister's wedding is over. It was a week ago yesterday. I thought it was a beautiful wedding. I loved standing beside her in my beautiful dress and feeling like a princess. I was surprised at myself because I barely cried. I got teary-eyed and two tears trickled down my cheek at one point. This is very unlike me. It was especially hard standing next to my dad and sister and seeing them both cry. My dad had to be both father of the bride and pastor. I'm sure it was pretty hard for him to wear two hats. Cindy and Josh have been through so much juntos and I am so glad that they have gotten to this point. It was awesome getting to see them exchange vows. I was overwhelmed and probably more jittery than my sister was. It was pretty nerve racking. It was fun having Becca, Lynette, Dave, and Marc there and so helpful. Becca and Lynette ran so many errands for me. It was a weekend of different worlds colliding. It was weird having my Philly friends in my home town meeting my old friends. It was also weird seeing my mom's side and dad's side together and in my hometown. I felt like the line of people hugging me would never end. I really did enjoy having everyone together even though I didn't get to spend much time with anyone. So it's so weird to think that my sister is no longer a Reynolds. I am the only Reynolds girl left (and probably will be forever). She is now Cindy Williams. Whoa. Our friend Matt flew in from Colorodo to surprise her. It was so nice to see him. My friendship with him is an awesome example of how God can heal relationships. We went through this rocky period when we didn't speak to each other at all and there was so much bitterness between us. Now there is only a faint memory of that time period. I am really at peace about it and truly love him with no hard feelings attached. God is amazing. My sister looked gorgeous in her wedding dress. I've never seen such a pretty girl in all my life. I now have a brother-in-law. I was so exhausted after the wedding. I couldn't even drive myself home from Marc's on Sunday afternoon. It's very rare for that to happen to me. I took a long and disoriented nap on his couch. I can't believe how mentally, physically, and emotionally draining the whole weekend was. This weekend was hard too. Jeff's memorial service was yesterday. I cried pretty much the whole time. I didn't know him well at all but I had such a burden for him. God has granted me with the gift to feel the pain of others and even cry for them. I really feel deeply for the Dean family. It was so hard hearing his voice and seeing all the love he had for Monica and his kids. It made me think a lot about love. They seemed to have such a deep love and devotion for each other. However, it wasn't rooted in Christ so is it actually shallow? I am very perplexed by this. Please offer any words of wisdom you may have. This month I will have covered pretty much all the big lifetime milestones three weekends in a row. Last weekend a wedding, this weekend a death, and next weekend a birth. I just got back from NYC. I went with people from Eastern to see a Spanish play. It was really good even though it had a few surprises (like a completely naked man). It was so great speaking Spanish again. I really want to practice more because I am so rusty. I am really glad I went. I had a really nice day with Marc. It was nice having some quality time with him because it has been so long. Well I am going to go home and veg a little before I study for my test for my evil bio class.

Whew

Well my sister's wedding is over. It was a week ago yesterday. I thought it was a beautiful wedding. I loved standing beside her in my beautiful dress and feeling like a princess. I was surprised at myself because I barely cried. I got teary-eyed and two tears trickled down my cheek at one point. This is very unlike me. It was especially hard standing next to my dad and sister and seeing them both cry. My dad had to be both father of the bride and pastor. I'm sure it was pretty hard for him to wear two hats. Cindy and Josh have been through so much juntos and I am so glad that they have gotten to this point. It was awesome getting to see them exchange vows. I was overwhelmed and probably more jittery than my sister was. It was pretty nerve racking. It was fun having Becca, Lynette, Dave, and Marc there and so helpful. Becca and Lynette ran so many errands for me. It was a weekend of different worlds colliding. It was weird having my Philly friends in my home town meeting my old friends. It was also weird seeing my mom's side and dad's side together and in my hometown. I felt like the line of people hugging me would never end. I really did enjoy having everyone together even though I didn't get to spend much time with anyone. So it's so weird to think that my sister is no longer a Reynolds. I am the only Reynolds girl left (and probably will be forever). She is now Cindy Williams. Whoa. Our friend Matt flew in from Colorodo to surprise her. It was so nice to see him. My friendship with him is an awesome example of how God can heal relationships. We went through this rocky period when we didn't speak to each other at all and there was so much bitterness between us. Now there is only a faint memory of that time period. I am really at peace about it and truly love him with no hard feelings attached. God is amazing. My sister looked gorgeous in her wedding dress. I've never seen such a pretty girl in all my life. I now have a brother-in-law. I was so exhausted after the wedding. I couldn't even drive myself home from Marc's on Sunday afternoon. It's very rare for that to happen to me. I took a long and disoriented nap on his couch. I can't believe how mentally, physically, and emotionally draining the whole weekend was. This weekend was hard too. Jeff's memorial service was yesterday. I cried pretty much the whole time. I didn't know him well at all but I had such a burden for him. God has granted me with the gift to feel the pain of others and even cry for them. I really feel deeply for the Dean family. It was so hard hearing his voice and seeing all the love he had for Monica and his kids. It made me think a lot about love. They seemed to have such a deep love and devotion for each other. However, it wasn't rooted in Christ so is it actually shallow? I am very perplexed by this. Please offer any words of wisdom you may have. This month I will have covered pretty much all the big lifetime milestones three weekends in a row. Last weekend a wedding, this weekend a death, and next weekend a birth. I just got back from NYC. I went with people from Eastern to see a Spanish play. It was really good even though it had a few surprises (like a completely naked man). It was so great speaking Spanish again. I really want to practice more because I am so rusty. I am really glad I went. I had a really nice day with Marc. It was nice having some quality time with him because it has been so long. Well I am going to go home and veg a little before I study for my test for my evil bio class.

Monday, April 04, 2005

Back in the habit

I am finally back. I know I haven't written an entry forever. I am so busy and writing an entry seems to take so much effort. So anyways, I will try to update as much as possible. I am drawing a blank for what I should write. My sister's wedding is this weekend. I can't believe it is here already. It seems almost surreal to me. My baby sister will soon be a wife. Whoa. They are going on a crusie in the Bahamas for their honeymoon and I am completely jealous. I am making her a scrapbook as one of her presents. It is fun looking back at old pictures. I am looking forward to being home for more than 24 hours (or less). I am also really excited about being her maid of honor....except that I have to give a speech. I should be fine though. I have been sick for the last week or two. I thought it was a little cold but it is obviously more. I am hoping it goes away by Saturday. So that's all for now I guess. I am trying to write more positive entries because my negativity bothers some people. These entries will be less real but they will keep you posted about the events in my life.