Thursday, September 22, 2005

Bad things always find me

No matter what I do, no matter how much I try to run or hide, bad things always follow me. At least I will have something to write about in tonight's blog :). I am very exhausted and discouraged. It has been a long and rough week. Nothing major happened until tonight. I was home last weekend seeing my beautiful new niece. Unfortunately it made me tired for the whole week. I also worked Monday night for someone who is on vacation so that ruined my one night off. I think I am getting sick too. It just kept piling up. Today was long and hard. I don't have time to eat on most Wed and Thurs. I go right from the preschool to my graduate assisstanship to class. I finally have time at 8 o'clock at night. I almost had a breakdown at class today. I just felt overwhelmed. I felt insane for taking 17 credits and working full time between 2 jobs and a grad assisstanship. I feel like i just can't do it. Like I don't have anything to give. And besides what is the point? I will end up with $80,000 worth of loans and be burnt out before I even start. I can't do it. After class I just wanted to be home and in bed before I needed to write papers, etc. I needed time to unwind and relax. Well unfortunately that is not what happened. I stopped to get gas on the way home and a car backed into me. Not only did it back into me but into my rental car. My car has been in the garage for 4 weeks because I hit a tree awhile ago. So now my rental is dented. I really have an awful time with cars. It wasn't my fault at all but it shook me up. I saw her backing into me and I couldn't do anything about it. It was a surreal, slow motion event. I called Marc because I wasn't calm enough to drive. He rescued me and helped me feel a little better like he always does. It was the perfect ending to my already horrible day. So now I have added hassle in my life. Like I didn't have enough already. It adds to my list of phone calls I have to make. I am just so worn out.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

You raise me up

I'm back. It has been way too long. I know a lot of you will be so excited to see this (especially you Becca). I really don't have too much to say right now. So much has happened in the last few months. Of course most of you know a lot of what is going on. I actually get a chance to see people. I am still busy but my days are more normal than before. I guess I had to grow up sometime :). Hmmm.........I really don't know what to say. So ask me questions if you want to know something specific. Just wanted to say hi and that I'm back.