An ode for my deer Lynette
Today I saw a gruesome sight on my way to the preschool. I saw a deer get hit by a van while I was heading in the opposite direction. The deer ran across the road kind of in front of me. it seemed to fly and soar through the air. It was hit by a van. It flew up in the air and did some flips in the air until it landed on the side of the road. It was quite icky and made my stomache turn. i am sad to say that this deer did not make it. Sorry for all the gory details but they had to be said.
A little perspective
This morning I woke up seething mad and thinking that blogs were an evil tool of Satan. It is amazing how God sends things to heal our hearts. It has been one rough day. I spent a good chunk of it crying. I found out horrible news today. My sister called me and told me that her best friend has a brain tumor. This girl was a part of our family since she became friends with my sister. She even lived with us during the summer. She was an adopted daughter. Now she is 22 and having to face this horrible trial. I am pretty devastated. She is having surgery Friday to have the tumor removed. It is in the area where her memory is so she could lose all of it. They have no idea how severe it could be or if her tumor is cancerous. I can't imagine the possibility of losing every memory I have and not even recognizing my loved ones. So please pray for her. And also for my sister. She is getting to be a pro at tragedy. My poor sister has been through so much loss and trials. It is quite a shock to my entire family. So God used this piece of bad news to show me that my problems truly aren't important. There are definitely worse things that could happen.
It's normal to be abnormal
So I feel a little like my old self this past week. And in some ways it is kind of nice. I like staying up late and I like staying out late. I love going to Wawa and absolutely no one is there. I love driving at night and having the road entirely to myself. I love the quietness of the night. And the darkness of the night. The new me can't stay up past midnight very easily. The new me is a grownup :). The new me needs sleep.....enough to make it through a day with energy and brain power. I was told this is how it is supposed to be. I am not supposed to function on only 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night. i am not supposed to live like a zombie. I really do like my new schedule. I am often the first one home. I used to love coming home and everyone was asleep. Now I am often home before Becca and Lynette. i am sometimes even in bed before Lynette comes home. It is quite amazing. I really love being at the preschool five days a week and I love grad school....most of the time :). It is very tiring but a new kind of tiring. It just requires a lot of energy. I can never do things simply :).
So on I different note, I just wanted to say that I am the kind of person who rarely does anything "naughty" but when I do I ALWAYS get caught :). I had a test in my research class a few weeks ago. She was handing out the test and going over it (after it was graded). While she was handing out the test I was finishing a post for the discussion in my online class. She cornered me later and told me I was disrupting the class with my emailing and she asked me not to do it again. What amazes me is that I was in the back of the classroom. Of course I felt awful and apologized. And I felt pretty stupid too. I really can't get away with anything :).
