Thursday, February 07, 2008

More than conquerors

That's how I feel today. I feel like I've achieved a major victory in my life although it was really small. This week was rough. Earlier in the week I was writing a blog in my head that I had entitled "Underdog". In it I was planning to use a quote from the Audio Adrenaline song that says, "Been beat up, been broken down." I never did write that blog because I never had the ganas. Today, however, I am writing because I feel the need to celebrate the small victory in my life. I feel like Satan always uses the same lies over and over again. The thing is I always fall for the same lies over and over again. He constantly tells me that I am no good and not able to change because he has power over my life. Last night I realized this wasn't true. I realized that I have changed. The words came to me through a friendly voice whom I love and trust dearly. I was quite surprised and discouraged at first. It made me feel as if I still was the same old person and that I really hadn't changed and wasn't even capable of change. Then I realized that this was the old me and I overcame it. I didn't flip out and get defensive or cry for hours like I did in the past. I was so calm it was scary. I came to realize that Satan was trying to lie to me and to discourage me. So these harsh and hurtful words about the person I once once was came to me as a gift from God through someone very dear to me. It showed me who I once was and who I am today. God can have victory in my life because he has had victory in the past. I don't need to give into Satan's lies anymore. So although this may be small, it is a huge victory for me. I am more than a conqueror with Christ in my life.