Saturday, November 28, 2009

I'm still here

I don't have much to say but I am wide awake at 2 a.m. and I am staying at my parents' house where I have internet so I decided to take advantage of it. It has been a crazy few months for me. It feels like one big whirlwind and I haven't had time to truly get my footing. My new job and new place are both going well. My biggest struggle lately is trusting God (as it often is). I often feel God moving me in a certain direction and then I doubt it was even God's voice moving me that direction. So I don't know if my problem is hearing God's voice or not trusting him. When I am in certain situations I tend to want to close myself off and run away rather than open up and be vulnerable....especially when past experience has told me over and over again that it's not going to work out. So right now I am in a place where I am trying to be open for what God has for me rather than follow my instinct of running. Sometimes I have a hard time distinguishing between closed doors and obstacles in the way. So please pray for me. I know my blog audience consists of two people or less, but I care about you both a lot....and I'm still here.