Wednesday, September 06, 2006

What if his people pray?

Tonight I have realized something....I don't always have all of the answers. I know you are saying 'duh' or 'no kidding' right now. I know this is true but yet I continue to try to solve things myself. I continue to try to rely on my own strength. It just gets me nowhere. Tonight I was driving home from La Salle and had a strong urge to go to Valley Forge and pray. I love VF at night even if it may not be smart to go there alone. It always helps me focus to go there. If I go home I always watch TV or go on the computer or find something else to occupy my time. So lately I have been giving advice to people or remaining silent when I could be giving advice. Later I review what I said and try to think of what I could have said. This had made me realize that whatever I said should have come from God. I need to spend more time praying without ceasing. I need to pray for the needs of myself and others rather than constantly searching for the right answers or the 'qucik fixes' of the problem. I can't do it myself. I am only an instrument that God uses.
My weekend in Chicago was amazing. I had so much fun. Lauren has a wonderful group of Christian friends. It made me miss the constant Christina fellowship that I once was a part of. Her friends are always hanging out and keeping each other accountable and lifting each other up. I really need that and want to be a part of a group like that. Chicago is also a fun city. It's funny because every time I go away it always makes me want to move away. I started my internship on Tuesday (whoa that was just yesterday!!) and I think I'm going to like it. It is so close to home. One of my schools is only 10 min away!! It's so nice not to have a long drive for once. Too bad I still have to drive the hour to La Salle.