i have a new appreciation for two hands
today was a bit of a frustrating day. i got some news that was a bit frustrating especially since it was my own procrastination that caused it. my hand also hurts a lot today. it has been working hard to pack and clean my room for our move on sat. i am trying not to over-do it but it is so hard to pack boxes with only one hand. it also takes a lot longer which is also frustrating. it is frustrating too because a lot of this aggravation could have been prevented if i had cleaned my room earlier in the summer like i had set out to do. i am making progress but there is just so much more to do. my cast is also bothering me. it is like a pair of uncomfortable shoes that you just can't wait to take off when you get home.....except you never get to take it off. i feel like ripping it off and throwing it across the room. i never really thought about all of the activities that require two hands. even simple events like dressing and typing can become chores. listen to me......i am worse than a kid.
i have a disease
i really and truly do...it's called being a people pleaser and hating to let anyone down. for those of you who don't know, i broke my hand a few days ago when i was visiting friends in alabama (that's why i'm not capitalizing anything......it requires 2 hands). well i was supposed to fill in at bed, bath, & beyond this week because there are people on vacation. i was still planning on doing this even with my broken hand. my boss said i need a doctor's note saying it is ok to work. i called the doc in ala but he wouldn't write me a note because he wants me to see an orthopedic doc. i can't see one until mon because my insurance doesn't start until then. so i have no note so they won't let me work. i should be happy about this but i feel bad. i have actually considered going to my doctor here and paying for the visit just to get a note saying it's ok to work. my boss found people to cover my shifts but i still feel like i let them down. i should be thrilled because now i have time to pack my room because we are moving on sat. i also don't have to work from 8 a.m.-11 p.m. 2 days in a row or close 4 days in a row. however i still feel bad. seriously, what is wrong with me? i think my broken hand may have been god's way of getting me out of work at bbb this week so i don't over do it like usual. i just need to stop being stubborn and accept the fact that i don't need to work extra this week. it is probably better for me not to work with a broken hand and moving and my in-services and all. so hopefully my disease is curable and i sure hope it's not contagious.
