My ode to crap
So here I am once again trying to avoid doing work. I keep writing paper after paper and there is still more!! I never get to the top of the mountain. I just don't have anything left in me. I truly have no good words to say or clever sentences to write. And the sad part is that I really don't care. I just want it to get done. So here it is: my ode to crap....It may be crap but at least it is done :). Four finals and one final project to go.
posted by Ninita @ 6:53 PM
2 Comments:
Nina,
Thanks for your comment on my blog. I wish it were up to me to read the Bible story...I wish I hadn't offered not to read it. I feel guilty about that like the professional side won over the Christian side...and yet I'd rather have the control over it by saying I won't read the story than have them take away my ability to talk about Jesus at all. I'm in such a quandry. Such a torn state of mind. I've talked to Dave and Marc and Christian friends of mine at school... I prayed...I feel like such a cop out as a Christian. Most everyone seems to think it's okay that I took the story out. Dave says that it doesn't stop me from telling the story...but I'm a coward. I liked to read it because the book--well, it was a bible--clearly said, "The Son of God is born!" I would have a hard time proclaiming that to a classroom without the ability to hide behind a books words. I feel like such a compromiser. I talked to both parents extensively and apologized profusely for their child's pain...I mean, kids did tell her she was going to hell for not believing in Jesus which is traumatic but true...but should I have done so? My principal says I should just say, "This is what the Mexicans believe but it's okay if people believe other things." I can't say that. It would be lying. It's NOT okay to believe other things. Oh, Nina, I'm so torn and heavy right now. I just want to quit and work at a Christian school...but even that seems cowardly to me right now. I know that Jesus would read the book. He offended many and sacrificed greatly for not giving in to popular opinion. I'm supposed to be like Jesus. WWJD right? I'm afraid though. Afraid to lose my job. Afraid to make waves...I make them, granted, as long as no one sees them. I have done this for three years even though I knew this very situation could happen....
And I coould comment about this FOREVER in your blog because my heart is so unsettled...so I'll leave it at that.
THanks again for your input.
Becca
Merry CHristmas Eve!!! I wish you would write more often. I'm at Dave's dad's girlfriends house and having a relaxing time....funnily enough I'm not melancholy over the change in my normal traditions! I miss you!!!! Ya gotta post over the break so I can see what's happening with my hermanita espanola (oooh, I miss my mac...it can make enyes and accents anywhere!!!!) I Love YOOOOOUUUUUUU! Feliz Navidad, chiqita.
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